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Sunday, March 15, 2009
New Meaning to 'Friends Come and Go'

I wanted a diary the moment I started to read Go Ask Alice.

I figured since I spend most of my time on the internet anyway, I might as well get an online diary. Who cares if it's not secretive. All I want to do is get my thoughts out where I can see them and manage them; like a filing cabinet.

I have two best friends.

B and S.

B and I have been besties since technically last year. Actually, we met and started to hang out the year before that. B didn't really know S at the time, but I remembered her from Gr. 5, where she was pretty much an outcast who liked to read and had glasses, along with a long neck. Well, in our second year of middle school we eventually met, because we were put in the same class. S was actually a kewl girl, and we both had a lot in common. B had to take a longer time to get comfy with our new friend, but it turned out great. We went through some memorable stuff, and soon we were so close we could be considered a snobby clique.

In fact, I guess we were, because we didn't let anyone too deep inside our "clique", and that was sort of a silent rule that we all knew.

It wasn't until our third and last year of middle school (Gr.8) where things started to change.

I hate change.

I mean, I get that it happens, and that we have to deal with it, but when I like something, I expect it to stay how it is.

Change shmange.

Anyway, in Gr.8, B started to hang out with other people, mostly because we were all seperated into different classes this time around. I know it shouldn't have bothered me, but it did.

A lot.

:c

Besides this, B and I were still besties, even though at times I felt left out and hated.

S was the one that was affected the most. We barely saw her. We only saw her every month or so. We'd say "hai" to her in the hallways whenever we saw her, but never a full out conversation.

I started to realize that I depended too much on these two, because each day I was scared to go outside by myself, being declared a "loner" without B and S. Which lead me here, looking at the 8 girls in my class, making it my mission to befriend them. Oh yes, I will get a new friend!

That'll show B and S that I can be independant, and not just the selfish, snobby, betchy girl they may think I am.

Either that, or I'm just paranoid and losing my mind.

o.O

Labels: change suckz, losing my mind, new friend search, paranoid